Perfect in my Imperfection

[Kid17]

-Tear-

And the time will come
When I cry
I divide the tear
In four
One part for your soul
One for the sake of mother
One for unborn child
And one for lost God
Nothing for me
Just endless emptiness
Maybe you will cry
For me
And give the last piece
Of yourself

[Kid17]

-Perfect in Imperfection-

Perfect in imperfection
Lost in time
Between birth and death
Without hope for
God's forgiveness
With sould torn apart
Bleeding its eternity
Now and forever
Empty and lost
Never found
Never looked for
Even God gave up
Searcging for lost
Soul
Perfect in imperfection
With death at the door
Agree for what comes
Deny what passed
Live now as now
Is all I have

[Kid17]

- Dream -

One can only dream
Of a friend like you
Who comes and goes
But never leaves

One can only dream
Of a soul like yours
Stained and tired
But never giving in

One can only dream
Of a love like yours
Troubled and far
But never weak

One can only dream
Of a house like yours
Old and cold
But never closed for me

One can only dream
Of a life like yours
Hard and tough
But never empty

So I keep dreaming
Waiting for the dream
To come true

[Kid17]

- Remember -

I wish I could remember
Just the good things
The laugh on your face
Not the eyes full of tears
I wish I was a wizard
Erase all the sadness
From the poor heart
And instead
Fill it with the unknown
Happiness
I wish I could just go to
Sleep
And wake up in the paradise
With all the lost sheep
Make a great feast
I wish you could get to
Know me
My true mind and soul
And make them together
As a unity for your dear
Heart
I wish I was a master
Of the given life
Make the use of knowledge
And teach how to survive
I wish I met one god
Who would guide me
Back to the light
But for the moment
I am just a beggar
In the darkness of my past

[Kid17]

- dear God -

Dear God
Sit with me at the table
Let's share
Bread of your body
And wine of your blood
Let's give each other
Sign of peace
Let's forgive our sins
We've been apart
Through our lives
Not knowing each other
And in ignorance
Hurting each other
Let's eat and drink together
And start over
You tell me that you
Exist
And I will tell you that I
Believe
But you are locked in your
Silence
And I gave up waiting for you
You keep all to yourself
I keep myself to my lost
Soul
And then I decided
You are dead
And I'm alive as long as it takes
To make the sins alive
And you buried under
The lost faith in me...

[Kid17]

- Gone -

Burn my soul
With the love
Let it burn
With eternal flame
Even if that means
Hell
Drown my mind
In the ocean of the truth
Let it loose itself
In endlessness
Even if that means
Madness
Kill my body
With the silence
Let it become
Handful of ashes
Even if that means
Gone forever
Without soul mind and body
Let me live in the memories
Of those who crossed my path

Let me die slowly in their hearts..

[Kid17]

- True me -

Where is true me?
Do I want to be true
Me?
Is true me
That person from the
Mirror?
Looking at me with the eyes full of
Suffering?
The person reading about the fate
Of others
Not knowing my own fate?
The person listening to your
Voice
Barely able to speak my own words?
The person working hard for the better
Life
Without hope that the life
Will get any
Easier
The person with the mind in
Clouds
Living the nightmare?
Here I am
The person with hopeless
Life
With past but no future
With naked soul
Waiting for another
Scare
True me is forever in
Pain

[Kid17]

- Fire -

I dream fire
Soul burning in hell
Of own thoughts
Ashes of sins
Covering my heart
I breath in hot air
Of wrong love
Burning desire
To set fire free
And let it destroy
World I'm living in

[Kid17]

- Silence -

Join me in my silence
Don't spoil it with the
Painful word
Let the thoughts
Flow freely
Between two of us
Make the most
Of the pure state
Of self being
Our feelings will then
Hold each others hands
And walk towards
The common place

[Kid17]

- Through your eyes -

I wish to see myself
Through your eyes
You say I'm good
I feel so bad
You say I'm beautiful soul
I feel it's rotten deep
You say I'm survivor
I feel like surrender
You say I have courage
So why I'm running away all my life
You say I'm gentle
I feel like rough giant
You say you love me
I hate myself till the end
You say I'm alive
I wake up dead every day
You say you're me
There was never me...

[Kid17]

-not a word-

i gave you my untold soul
and you threw it in the bin
it hurt it hurt
i cried
i broke
i lost faith
and you never came back
you didn't say a word
to forget
to move on
to live again

[Kid17]

-devil's game-

you save me
you kill me
my love for you is in the sky
but my pain keeps me in the ground
my lord
you like it
you like to tear my soul in two
a piece for you
a piece for the devil
what about you my love
what about us
are we just the ashes of our own imagination?

[Kid17]

-us?-

you broke my heart
you even didn't realized
you said the things are not the same between us
but for me nothing has ever changed
you added pain to my existence
and left me with luggage of unwanted feelings
for you it was just you and me
for me it was us